* The following is an adaptation, in a different format and with a few slight edits, of something I handed out today at a local church I’ve been attending. I hope it is still meaningful here for others, even if it is, to some degree, “out of context.”
“The facts have shown us that the illness that seized civilized Russians was much stronger than we ourselves imagined.”
– Fyodor Dostoevsky, in a letter to his friend Apollan Maikov on Jesus’ healing of the Gerasene demoniac as inspiration for his novel Demons
“My wife came out and said, ‘How do I look in these jeans?’ I said, ‘Thank you, Jesus, for my smokin’ hot wife.’
– Mark Driscoll in his Mars Hill series called “Vintage Jesus,” which can be heard at 7:25 of “Driscoll’s t-shirt ministry” on Youtube HERE
I see myself in Mark Driscoll and praise of his “hot wife.” His commentary was followed by a pregnant pause that was filled by a big smile of his and followed by jovial laughter from the audience. I am his audience. My desires and aspirations are formed the same way his are. And, I am constantly tempted, in that formation of my desires, to enact them in such a way that sacrifices care for power. I once screamed abusively over the phone at a woman who I had been interested in, and in whom I had invested many hours of time relating to, when she ghosted me. Her and I hadn’t violated any of God’s commands. We had “been pure.” As it turns out, however, my idol was being revealed. She was Eros to me, Aphrodite, a false goddess. And, in the confusion and pain out of which I lashed out in anger, I was experiencing judgment for my idolatry. I learned my idolatry from somewhere. It is an idolatry that is predominant in our culture, and which we see at work in Mark Driscoll’s ministry.
So, is it any surprise that he built up Mars Hill on the image of strong masculinity and “family values” and that it then crashed when his abusiveness was revealed? Discerning Christian women did not seem surprised. See, for example “Why I’m totally not surprised by the Rise and Fall of Mars Hill podcast,” by Cecily Paterson (link HERE). He is still being abusive at his new church in Arizona, by the way. See “THE TRUTH ABOUT MARK DRISCOLL” on the Vince Manuele Show via Youtube (link HERE). We see these same dynamics at work in John McArthur’s church, which prides itself on “family values.” See “Former Elder at John MacArthur’s Church Confronts ‘Awful Patterns’ of Endangering Abuse Victims,” by Julie Roys, Feb. 9, 2023 (See link, HERE).
Reactivity against a culture means enslavement to it.
In the face of – and in reaction against – modern secularism and humanism, I can also identify with the Fundamentalist affirmation of miracles and scriptural authority. I used to call the Enlightenment the “endarkenment.” For me, this was a reaction against vacuous formality, mechanical monstrosities, and prideful presumptions to scientific and technological mastery of the universe. I saw these as worthless sacrifices of time and care built into previous practices involving and requiring human touch and relationality (such as in ancient masonry, for example). So, I can see part of myself in the shoes walking on a path of scriptural literalism
My reaction, however, took a somewhat different shape from that of the Fundamentalist. In the face of technical disenchantment, I was enchanted by Gnosticism. As it turned out, my draw towards Gnosticism was shaped by my own Christian up brining in the first place. I had been taught – whether implicitly or explicitly, or both – that this world is impure or evil, will be burned up, and that we will spend eternity transcended higher in a disembodied and “purely spiritual” heaven. All the while, I was blind to the actual story God is telling and into which He is inviting us. I was incapable of tending to my viscerally embodied responses and inviting God to reshape them in His image. Why? Because the solution to any problem was transcending it.
Reactivity against a culture means enslavement to it.
I can also identify with Mark Driscoll’s affirmation of “family values,” including around the problem with abortion. Sexual promiscuity strikes me as degrading and evokes instability. A part of me can also identify with Driscoll’s warnings against homosexuality. After starting my nursing career, I worked for about a year as a server at Olive Garden. When a young man who was a fellow server, we’ll call him Brian, wore bows on his wrists (and sometimes eye liner) at Olive Garden, my body viscerally reacted against it – without thought or reflection. I had a hard time recognizing this, because my lifelong habit had been to transcend the solution to any problem. Transcending it meant interpreting it through the lens of “God clearly says,” so end of discussion. How am I supposed to react? Does it matter?
For Paul, however, there was no such thing as homosexual identity. “Homosexual practices” in in the 1st century Roman context were more about power and status than a person’s sexual orientation (see Destroyer of the gods: Early Christian Distinctiveness in the Roman World, by Larry Hurtado, and The Patient Ferment of the Early Church, by Alan Kreider). What if part of the reason men were able to be sexually stimulated by the prospect of “homosexual practices” in the first place, in that context, was because their identity, and thus also their desire, was formed inside a culture governed by hierarchical power structures? Paul’s challenge to “homosexual practices,” at least as much as anything else, was actually about Jesus’ subversion of Roman hierarchies by, as king of the entire universe, dying shamefully on the cross at the hands of abusive Powers (Phil. 2: 1-11).
Paul’s visceral response to Roman sexual practices was formed not by abstract, transcendent rules but by Christ’s kenotic love. My response to Brian came to light one night when he was obviously and visibly upset that the new manager, who was a Christian male, used his power to force Brian to remove his bows from his wrists. Brian, by the way, was 6’-8” tall and well over 300 lbs. And, at any given time, the Christian male manager was literally the only person in the building bigger than him. This was when I realized that my visceral response to Brian’s bows was because he presented a challenge to my own identity and socialized formation as a male inside a culture governed by hierarchical power structures (see, for ex. “Growing up in Pornland: Girls Have Had It with Porn Conditioned Boys” – link HERE).
Reactivity against a culture means enslavement to it.
For Paul, not only was there no such thing as homosexual identity, but there was also no individual identity in the first place. This past week, on Wed., I walked out to my apartment’s parking lot and saw a sticker on my car saying it would be towed by Saturday if my expired tags were not updated. The purpose of the realty company’s use of the tow truck is to prevent unused cars taking up parking spaces needed for residents. This rule did not at all apply to me. The application of such a sticker was also a change from the previous practice of my apartment complex, which relied on interpersonal knowledge of which cars are unused in our parking lots. When I learned the nature of the change, and when I realized that my realty company likely had a contract of mutual financial benefit with the tow truck company, I did not react well.
There was other stuff going on, too, but my body viscerally and without reflection interpreted what was happening as my individual freedom and dignity being sacrificed to mechanical rules universally applied. I screamed at the ladies in the apartment office and slammed the door shut behind me – only to find out later that there is an interpersonal mechanism in place right on their desk that prevents the wrong cars from being towed, if I but just go talk to them. God’s story is about interpersonal relating and desire, the formation of community. In my individualist reaction against “the culture” of mechanical bureaucracy, I was incapable of enacting God’s reign of relating to the actual women in the office in accordance with Christ like love. I tried three times today to go to the office and apologize. Unfortunately, no one was there. I will try again next week. In any case, I view this episode in my life as a microcosm of white Christian evangelical support of Trump in concert with literally deadly reaction against what they interpret as the “group think” of “sheeple” (i.e. the 1/6 insurrection attempt).
For Paul, not only was there no such thing as homosexual identity, but my visceral response in affirmation of our individualism was foreign to him. In Paul’s context, “homosexual practices” were not a free individual choice of identification with a sexual orientation. See, for example, “Capitalism and Gay Identity,” by John D’Emilio, – who, by the way, identifies as gay. Part of D’Emilio’s argument is that Capitalism, in its ideology of free individual choice, its increased economic prosperity and independence, leading to migration from countryside to city (said countryside where homosexuals were more shunned and less tolerated), and contributing to the growth and formation of cultural communities inside cities, including homosexual ones, all facilitated not the very existence of homosexuality but its increased proliferation in society. In other words, our current cultural climate regarding “homosexual practices” is not merely or only a product of universal, free individual choice but, rather, at least partly, of contingent social and economic forces through the course of our history for the last 150+ years.
Also, empirically, according to anthropological studies, most every people or nation on earth through the course of time has had such sexually or gender ambiguous people living among them. They have usually lived in their own community, somewhat separate, or “exiled” from the rest of the people. See, for example, “The evolutionary paradox of homosexuality,” by Tom Whipple, published May 9, 2018, in BBC Science Focus (link HERE). The scriptures even have and address folks who appear as sexually ambiguous. And, it is not to condemn them with rules against their practices. Isaiah 56: 1-8, referred to as “the gathering of the outcasts,” is fulfilled in Acts 8: 26-40 in the story of Phillip and the Ethiopian eunuch. So, if “God created us male and female” is a legitimate literal, scientific, or technical reading of the beautiful poetry of Genesis 1-2, then where did Cain’s wife come from in Gen. 4: 17 (for more on this generally, see The Lost World of Genesis One: Ancient Cosmology and the Origins Debate, by John Walton)? In our blindingly idolatrous identification with historically contingent images of what manhood means and looks like – as in my response to Brian’s bows – we can’t see what God is doing in His story, even though it’s right in front of our faces in the scriptures. Our reactivity against “the culture” renders us incapable of participating in said story of God, to which we are blinded.
Reactivity against a culture means enslavement to it.
In my former life as an Architect, I helped design the relatively new Carter Machinery building in James City County. We designed it to have a pattern of relating the weight of the land to the light of heaven, folded up inside a rhythmic pattern of relating between charcoal grey brick and yellow metal cladding. It was a design-build collaboration with the owner, Carter Machinery. In a key spot at the front of the main building, where the pattern for which we aimed was most readily to be revealed and able to be read viscerally in an embodied response, Carter changed the metal cladding to the brick. This destroyed the intended affect. Why did Carter make this move? To make the building look more expensive, and to “raise the value.” So, in accordance with capitalist logic of valuable possession of material objects as spectacle, our attempt at reconnection with the earth was lost. Well, I did not know any of this until I visited the site one Saturday afternoon. When I saw what they had done, I screamed so loudly and for so long that I lost my voice.
I returned home exhausted and fell asleep. After praying and talking to my pastor at the time, a scripture came to mind, seemingly not of my own accord. It was the image of Shimei throwing rocks at and cursing David, in 2 Samuel 16. The image, seemingly from God, helped me to realize that I felt like rocks were being thrown at me, and that I was being cursed. It also helped me to be viscerally changed by David’s response. What was it? “The Lord has told him” to do it (v. 11)! What if, in the Carter Machinery building, “the Lord told them to do it”? I eventually realized that capitalism’s hierarchical structuring of reality had shaped me to aspire towards the top of said hierarchy by revealing my artistic talent for all the world to see. The capitalism I blamed was the capitalism I had become.
God, however, was inviting me to become a sacrificial offering of such idolatrous self-identification. God was instead drawing me towards practicing Christ-like love in service to others. In my aspiration to make the story of God’s union of heaven and earth appear (Rev. 21), I had been blind to God’s path to making the union of heaven and earth appear (John 12: 24). In my blindness, I viscerally reacted against being prevented from seeing.
Reactivity against a culture means enslavement to it.
Years later, I now work as a hospice nurse.
Speaking of desire for connection with the land in the face of (capitalist) exile from it, the scriptures are full of cultural allusions to this that we (in our capitalist relating to land by means of taking possession of it as a distant spectacle that is cut up into plots of ownership) might tend to miss. Consider Peter, Cornelius, and the “great sheet” with “all kinds of animals and reptiles and birds of the air” that Peter was told to “kill and eat” (Acts 10: 12). According to Willie Jennings in his commentary on Acts 10, in that cultural context, the different animals of the lands that sustain different peoples become representatives of said peoples. The different animals that sustain Jews and Gentiles represent for them their different ways of life and historical origin stories in relation not only to different lands but also to different gods. So, why would Peter have resisted the Word presented before him? Peter resisted, because it was a visceral matter of his Jewish identity that had been distinguished from other peoples by YHWH Himself! For Peter to even step foot in Cornelius’ house was to be defiled, to be rendered unworthy of entering the Jewish Temple for worship in the way he was accustomed. For further reference on this, see N.T. Wright’s What St. Paul Really Said, The Challenge of Jesus, and The Climax of the Covenant.
In the scriptures, we also see, “in the country of the Gadarenes,” Jesus’ casting of a “Legion” of demons through a herd of pigs and into the sea. Significantly, this story is set in a Gentile domain. According to Ched Myers’ Binding The Strong Man, at issue here is not simply the Jewish refusal to eat pork. This is not a story about Israelites following of a transcendent rule of God for their dietary practices, over and against Gentile lawlessness. A “Legion” was a highly disciplined, well-trained, and heavily armed body of infantry soldiers of between five and six thousand men. They were a formidable Power. Rome was a formidable Power occupying the land God had given to Israel. For a people living adrift under political exile in the promised land, the image of a “Legion” oppressing a Gentile man in his own region can become an image that reinforces the nature of the “sick culture” the Jews resent. This is to say that an entire herd of swine rushing headlong to their death in the sea at the hands of a Jewish prophet is an image steeped in cultural antagonisms. Even still, the town shows up at the graveyard confronted by a inexplicably healed family member. Why would they not have celebrated? Why do we imagine, instead, they would have asked Jesus to leave?
The story of Saul and the Amalekite animals in 1 Samuel 15 might be of some help towards answering that question. In terms more native to Ancient Near East (ANE) culture than to ours, the Amalekite defeat is Israel’s feast. Agag’s capture is Saul’s monument. Amalekite shameful bloodshed is sacrifice to Israel’s victorious glory. The making of Agag king of the Amalekites into a slave is the affirming of Saul as master. For more on such bronze age practices in Mesopotamia and the surrounding region, see The Dawn of Everything: A New History of Humanity, by David Graeber and David Wengrow (and Walter Wink’s Powers trilogy). They go in depth in discussing such patriarchal signs of authoritarian monarchy as the “monument to himself” that Saul built after shedding Amalekite blood.
If we are still wondering at the meaning of Saul’s monument in the context of the question of cultural understandings of our relationship with the land, consider another and very different monument we see a representative figure head of Israel build. Compare Saul’s “monument to himself” in 1 Samuel 15 to Joshua’s building of a monument at Gilgal with 12 stones – 12 stones from the Jordan River – after crossing said Jordan River, in order to remember what the Lord had done in that place (Joshua 4). Notably, Gilgal later become a place where Saul and Samuel went to worship in 1 Samuel 15! Joshua’s monument to YHWH was itself a play on an Ancient Near Eastern (ANE) cultural practice. Think, for example, of the Egyptian pyramids, which Egyptian kings built “as monuments to themselves,” who were worshipped as gods. Development of communal identification around sacrificial feasts of the animals of a particular people was also an ANE cultural practice (see, for example, Leviticus 7). In scriptural terms, then, Saul’s sacrifice of Amalekite animals to Israel’s glory, and the “building of a monument to himself” would have been akin to divination and idolatry.
Remember that – per Willie Jennings in The Christian Imagination: Theology and the Origins of Race – a people’s animals, which are sustained by the land and which sustain said people, became representatives of that people who associate with them in their very identity (communally). This is an important aspect of understanding God’s formation of Israel’s identity in the Exodus that is so foreign to our own culture that we miss it. God was inviting the Israelites into His reign over their relationship with the land. The land was not to first be an identity marker that signified Israel’s glory but, rather, a medium of relationship that signified the reign of YWHW’s will and judgment. God was challenging “the culture” in ways Israelites had a hard time even seeing or understanding, and much less being freed from. We often say, “you can take the Israelites out of Egypt, but you can’t take the Egypt out of the Israelites.” We don’t often, however, imagine, or much less consider, that and how the 10 plagues, Aaron’s golden calf, and Israel’s grumbling in the wilderness was their struggle with letting go of identifying with the land of Egypt that had sustained them for so long.
Idolatry is not just bowing down to a statue. Idolatry is the Israelite’s image of reality being enslaved to the land of Egypt while in the middle of God’s mighty work of Exodus from it. And, of course, our sense of identity is always tied to our image of reality. Israel couldn’t imagine that God was inviting them into a new identity. We have a hard time imagining it, too, but now for different reasons. Considering my stories above, about “hot wives,” bows on wrists, and stickers on cars, this visceral difficulty in imagining what God is doing in relation to “the culture” may begin now to sound like a familiar refrain.
Was this challenging of that to which we are blind by virtue of our idolatry not also what the Lord wanted to do in commanding that the Amalekites be “utterly consumed” and “destroyed” – rather than sacrificed to Israelite victory in a great feast?
“Has the Lord as great delight in burnt offerings and sacrifices,
– 1 Samuel 15: 22-23
as in obeying the voice of the Lord?
Behold, to obey is better than sacrifice,
and to heed is better than the fat of rams.
23 For rebellion is as the sin of divination,
and stubbornness is as iniquity and idolatry…”
Why and how did Saul actually imagine that he had carried out the Lord’s command? Why was it not obvious to him that he had not? Why is Samuel’s response to Saul legitimately imagining he had fulfilled the Lord’s command, of all possible responses, “What then is this bleating of the sheep in my ears, and the lowing of the oxen which I hear?” What if Israel still hadn’t completed their Exodus? What if the golden calf remained ever before their mind’s eye, so to speak? These are questions of our image of reality that penetrate to the depths of our very identity. Saul wasn’t imagining reality the way Samuel did because of his image of his very identity. You don’t just decide to choose to change that.
If 1 Samuel 15: 24 can, in some sense, indeed said to be about “people pleasing,” or “fear of man” over “fear of God,” then we still have to ask why the people would have wanted Saul to do what he did rather than what God had commanded in the first place? Is this story, as we might tend to imagine it, really just about Saul’s individually free choice to follow or not follow God’s clear and obvious command, to which Saul simply had to mentally assent? As we tend to imagine “the culture” is doing today in relation to God? To His clear commands and requirements? To the authority of church?
Samuel’s “destroying” of Agag king of the Amalekites with his sword is also the “consuming” of Saul’s visceral desire to be master. That is why it is accompanied by Saul’s removal as king of Israel. And, the removal of Saul as king is judgement on Israel’s false image of glory they had found in the feasting on Amalekite animals. Saul was in a reactionary culture war against Agag. Israel was in a reactionary culture war with the Amalekites. God wanted to make all things new.
Reactivity against a culture means enslavement to it.
Speaking of cultural antagonisms around land and place, the woman at the well in John 4 says to Jesus, “Our fathers worshiped on this mountain; and you say that in Jerusalem is the place where men ought to worship” (v. 20). Just as the Saul’s expectation to “utterly destroy” the Amalekites was not simply a clear rule from above, the places this woman mentions are not just observations of where Jews and Samaritans worship. She is acknowledging the reality of cultural antagonisms with a man who is subverting cultural antagonisms with her. “This mountain” and Jerusalem were lands in association with which Samaritans and Israelites, respectively, identified.
“You worship what you do not know; we worship what we know, for salvation is from the Jews. 23 But the hour is coming, and now is, when the true worshipers will worship the Father in spirit and truth, for such the Father seeks to worship him. 24 God is spirit, and those who worship him must worship in spirit and truth.”
– John 4: 22-24
Here, “in spirit and in truth” does not mean disconnection from or transcendence over the land. In the Gnosticism of the Rapture theology into which I was formed growing up, that is what I thought it meant. I have since come to see that my interpretation of the text here was governed by visceral response to cultural antagonisms, and that the particular response chosen was in accordance with what was available to me inside a culture that formed me. I have also since come to see that “in spirit and truth” instead means healing of relationships, and that this healing was embodied in what Jesus was actually doing in that very moment. He was relating in trust, care, and service to “her, a Samaritan, with whom the Jews had no dealings.”
Our exploration of scriptural allusions to connection with the land in the face of (capitalist) exile from it now brings us to the Ascension and Pentecost. Here, we see the same pattern of God’s reign inviting us into a community of healing relationships between peoples of different lands or “cultures.” This is Jesus’ final blessing upon them (Acts 1: 7-8) before disappearing into a cloud. It’s what the Spirit empowers 10 days later. And, it is Paul’s entire mission. He was carrying out a previous pattern. The Lord’s instructions to Peter regarding Cornelius were an unfathomable expression of desire for relationship with the cultural “other” through sacrifice of Peter’s previous sense of identity. Joshua’s monument at Gilgal was a remembrance of God’s might and care, both as expressions of desire for relationship. Israel’s crossing of the Jordan was a fulfillment of what was initiated in Exodus from Egypt. Jesus sent the healed demoniac as a trusted testament to his reign of care and desire for relationship, to which representations of Roman identity in antagonism with distrusted Jews – i.e. a herd of pigs – become a holy and creative sacrifice. Do note the creation imagery with their falling into the chaos of the sea. The woman at the well becomes a trusted testament to Jesus’ reign of care and desire for relationship, to which the antagonism between Jews and Samaritans itself becomes a holy and creative sacrifice. If we want the healing waters of Revival, is this what we mean?
The “preparation of a table in the presence of my enemies” is, in the context of ancient Israel, a table of friendship.
And yet we read 1 Samuel 15 as primarily being about Saul being a “people pleaser.” And, we do so in the service of a culture war that we are so committed to as to declare that it’s not a culture war but a spiritual war. God’s story is healing and desire for relationship. We have made ourselves faithful to a different story. We have given ourselves faithfully over to a war against a culture, itself governed by antagonisms.
Reactivity against a culture means enslavement to it.
I confess that I am myself a reactionary. Initially, I viscerally reacted against the very sermon being addressed here, which was on homosexuality,1 Samuel 15, and the culture wars. I may not have consciously thought this, but my body was screaming, “It’s them not me!” Echoing Adam, my body said, “she did it!” Can anyone else here join me in confessing my discipleship under, and thus “ancestry from” Adam? Perhaps a better way to interpret Genesis 1-4, rather than as a technically literal text in reaction against modern science’s challenges to scriptural authority, is to actually place ourselves inside its action.
If we confess that we have been “led astray” by cultural idols that shape our sense of identity, reality, and purpose, and if my own revelations of idolatry led also to realization of my judgment, then are we able to forgo our Sauline and Roman images of cultural or sexual mastery and, instead, heed Habakkuk’s warning of a coming judgment from the “Babylonians”? Can we forego our war against the “Babylonians” and instead apologize to them for how we have been treating them? This does not mean we have to agree with them. If we humble ourselves before the Lord and confess our sin, then perhaps the Lord, in His great and graceful desire for relationship, will have abundant mercy on us.